Nausea and Exhaustion

I think I am feeling a little more nauseated every day. I woke up this morning and sort of felt sick to my stomach even before I took the Cytoxan. Taking the Compazine with the Cytoxan hasn't really helped compared to taking it after I start feeling sick. I was pretty ill for a couple hours today, but started feeling better after lunch.

Amelia has maybe outgrown her swing which is unfortunate. She keeps trying to rock forward out of it and would have landed on her head if I wasn't there. It is really close to the ground, so her falling out of it isn't quite as scary as it sounds, but I still think that she is probably done with it. I hate to quit using it though because she takes her naps in it. I tried to put her down for a nap in the crib today and she kept startling herself back awake. Finally, I got the idea to swaddle her like we do at night and that helped a lot.

My mom was gone a lot of day and I didn't really get a break taking care of Amelia. Then around 9pm, I really crashed. My back started killing me and I just couldn't hardly keep my eyes open. I laid down on the couch, but didn't sleep for about an hour while my mom held Amelia. I feel better now, but the sudden exhaustion was hard.

Weaning a Baby

Today went well as far as the WG goes, although I have started weaning Amelia to a bottle and that is awful. I alternated nursing her with giving her a bottle every other feeding. I've been pretty sore and engorged all day. It is just making me miserably sad.

Except for the exhaustion, I felt pretty healthy today. I was really active in the morning, but had to take a nap both in the afternoon and again in the evening because I was so tired.

Living Arrangements

Today Ross and I went to our house and picked up quite a few things to bring back to my mom's. Since I am about to start Cytoxin, we figured that I would be living with her for at least another few weeks if not quite a bit longer.

If it wasn't for Amelia, I could be home without much of a problem. However I am so tired I get to the point where it is hard to keep functioning without a nap everyday. I am also physically pretty weak and can't carry her for more than a minute or two because my back and chest starts to hurt. Lastly, the amount of time required to care for makes it difficult for me to take care of myself... it's hard to eat something other than a granola bar and a glass of milk when I'm rushing to sit down and feed her. I miss being home, but before I came her I was spending all day trying to get her to sleep and then passing out as soon as she went down. I am worried that the Cytoxin will make me feel worse than I am now... and I will be here another 6 months until they switch me to something milder. We'll just have to wait and see.

I should mention that my sinuses were pretty bad today. I started feeling pretty congested
this evening. I did my NeilMed nasal rinse and that helped alot. My eyes are pretty scratchy, although my arthritis was barely noticeable today though. I was very tired, although I did a lot more today than usual.