Jagged Little Pill

I started taking my Cytoxin today.

I woke up and nursed Amelia for the last time. Ughgh. So sad...

... and then took all my pills. I have to take 3 Cytoxin pills because they are 50mg each and I have to take 150mg each day. I also have to take my morning prednisone, Bactrim, calcium and a vitamin. At night I take a prednisone and a Nexium. I can't believe how many pills I am taking.

I felt a little nauseated before lunch, but the Cytoxin didn't seem to effect me too much immediately. I am really tired right now too, but my sleep is so disrupted that it is hard to say what that is from.

I have almost gotten all of my medical records ordered. I think it's going to run me about $50, but other WG patients suggested that it is a really good idea to keep a personal record of them. Since the WG goes into remission and (hopefully) doesn't flair back up for years at a time, it is hard to remember what happened the last time. It is good to have a record of what led to what and what medication, tests, etc were ordered.

I have been pretty sad and moody today. I read that stopping nursing can bring on a bit of mild depression for a few weeks. It's hard not to get a hit of oxytocin every 3 hours. :) Anyway, as Ross said, "It isn't as though you don't have anything to feel sad about. You mood is in line with your situation right now. I agree. It's been a bummer of a day.